Mar 3- Still

Meditation: Calm, How to Meditate: Into the Stillpoint
Length: 11 minutes
Where: Home Office/Guest Room, Los Angeles
How It Felt: Centered and Energizing

I spent hours today finishing my kitchen organization project. Well, almost finishing. There is still labeling to do… but it will come. Eventually. Not tonight.

Tonight, my little brain is beat.

Luckily, I meditated early in the day today, before my mind was too tired to enjoy it. Yay! I’m not exactly nailing my “morning routine” idea I talked about yesterday but, hey, it’s been one day. Work in progress.

In this chapter of the “How to Meditate” series, we focused on getting really, really still. It was actually relaxing and energizing all at once, somehow. It was as if I got so still, my brain took a power nap! That’s one thing I remember about meditating in the past that I haven’t experienced too often this year- I used to get a huge energy burst by the end of a meditation about half the time!

I wonder if I’m focusing a little too hard on my sessions. I know I quite often have to tell my mind to stop thinking about what I’ll write for my blog, for instance! I’m afraid I’ll forget a cool moment or key idea. Maybe, in the past, I just let my mind drift a bit more…

Now that I’m getting ahold of the basics, I think I should really try to get back to that place. What I write will come. If I’m present, I’m more likely to remember the things I don’t want to forget, anyway! Number one cause of memory loss in my life: not paying attention.

I am a dreamer by nature. I can’t tell you how many hours I spent in class, on the subway, in the backseat of my parents’ car- anywhere I could zone out- just daydreaming. When I was a kid, I would dream of being an actor mostly, or imagine whatever crush I had at the moment (and there was always a crush) being super in love with me. As an adult, I still daydream about acting, even though it’s my job now, because I just love it. I’ll picture being on set with some amazing performer, or booking a dream role, or accepting my Oscar. I also dream about winning big on a game show, or traveling somewhere amazing, or anything else you can possibly imagine.

Maybe I should call it “visualizing,” because I’m a proper grown up now, and that sounds like I took a really cool business seminar and I’m a total hashtag boss babe…..

But, frankly, it’s just daydreaming. And I love it! I’m not going to argue with a mental vacation, people.

During a meditation, however, it’s not super helpful. I’ll drift away and suddenly realize I have no idea what the guide told me to do, then try to catch up, then feel bad that I don’t know what’s going on, then I’m lost.

However, this practice is teaching me to not be so hard on myself. The point is to practice coming back to the moment, right? Only way to practice that is by leaving the moment in the first place!

So basically, nailing it. Meditation on track. Food in (yet to be labeled but neat and categorized) bins and turntables. Tupperware lids organized by size and shape in a bamboo lid organizer.

Who AM I? What magical adult did I grow into?

Let me tell you something- if seven year old me had known about bamboo lid organizers… she definitely would have spent some time daydreaming about the day she would have them. 10/10 for sure.

Like I said. Nailing it, guys.