Aug 1- Scattered

Meditation: Headspace, Finding Focus #1
Length: 11 minutes
Where: Office/Guest Room, Los Angeles
How It Felt: Helpful

Ok, new month, new me! Or… new month, slightly less stressed out me? We hope?

That doesn’t sound confident.

Life is so weird right now! This pandemic has me all messed up. I’m working, I’m happy, I’m feeling great about life in general, but all this change and back and forth still has me totally stressed. I feel like I have a lot of time in each day but also like I can’t get much done somehow.

I honest to god think I forgot how to be focused during this weird sixteen month period in which I had incredibly little to actually do.

So, let’s fix that! I started a new course on Headspace called “Finding Focus,” and that’s just exactly what I plan to do, friends.

As I look back on today’s meditation, I can honestly say I was only listening about half the time. My brain is all over the place! There is so much to keep track of, so much to remember. So many people around again, so many plans. I’m a tremendously organized person but I’m just forever behind lately. I’m so nervous to forget something important! An audition, an event I’m supposed to attend, a favor I said I would get around to doing…. I used to keep this stuff in my mental files no problem.

Now? Oof. I’m just trying to keep those plates spinning!

I am feeling a lot better overall, better than I was last week. Sometimes you just have to freak out a little, get it all out. I’m feeling capable and not so overwhelmed. One foot in front of the other is working. It usually does.

I feel aligned, too. Back to so many good things coming my way daily. Surprises, gifts, money, opportunities, kindnesses, etc. Feeling the abundance!

I need to practice staying focused, though, or I’ll never make it through the next four weeks. Meditation to the rescue!

(I hope!)