Oct 23- Mile 21

Meditation: Headspace, Everyday Headspace: *Something About Listening*
Length: 7 minutes
Where: Living Room, Los Angeles
How It Felt: Wonderful
Who Joined Me: Steve

Ok, I’m not gonna lie. These blogs are…. going on a loooong time. I feel like I’ve been writing them forever. I am sort of honestly ready to be done.

I promised myself I would meditate every day for a year and write a post for every day of the year and that’s what I’m going to do. I’m not giving up. I want to prove to myself that I can do this very challenging thing, because then the next time I face a challenge, I will have so much more confidence. I already do! I know this is something I’m doing for myself, first and foremost, and it has helped and changed me so much already. I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished so far.

I am in the roughest part, though, I think. For me, anyway. I’m not quite in the home stretch, but I am a person who has written a post a day for well over ten months. That’s damn near 300 posts. That is a lot in a row. I’m growing tired of having a task that must get done every single day. I am burning out, so I put it off until the next day so often, then I don’t meditate in the morning because I know I have to write my blog first, and I still want to procrastinate.

I’m just not quite at the point where I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. People who run marathons say the hardest point is somewhere between miles 18 and 23. I wouldn’t know, because I would never run a marathon- that honestly looks insane to me (but serious kudos if you’ve done it!)- but I can imagine this has some mental similarities. I’m tired of the thing, and I’m not quite almost done with the thing. I’m not even about to be in the last month. Oh my god.

There are so many left.

But!! I am not giving up! Besides setting a goal and sticking to it, writing every day is a fantastic habit. I’m getting so many ideas of things I want to write, and I don’t want to lose this consistency. I have always wanted to write a book (or many) but never understood how anyone could possibly do that. Now I get it! A little at a time, you can write an awful lot. I know now that I can do big things, as long as I do them a little at a time.

In other news, closing night went well. There was celebratory In & Out after, and a nice, relaxing night with my husband. I am so proud of that show, and my cast. I am also so glad to be done! We did it! It went great. Now a little mental rest. Back to shorter term gigs for a bit. Work I don’t have to bring home with me too much. I also have some of my own creative projects I’d like to focus on!

(However, there has already been talk of turning our show into a short film, with yours truly directing and a pretty all-star cast…. who knows? This project may only be on pause. We shall see!)

Tomorrow is a bit of a rest day, thankfully. Lots to do to get the house back in shape, catch up on laundry, errands, etc since I’ve been a bit (literally) lame the past two weeks. Steve and I travel to Orlando Wednesday morning for a couple of days. He’s accepting an award for some of the amazing work he and his team and have done. So proud of him! Lots to prepare before then though- there are tickets to The Animal Kingdom (I’ve never been!) and a safari themed gala and the actual ceremony and therefore lots of outfits to plan. Exciting!

And I promise the universe and my poor, beat up turf toe that I will stay off heels. Mostly. Off super tall heels anyway. Almost definitely.

No, of course, definitely.

Unless they really pull together the outfit… and then… almost definitely. For sure.

Hm. I’d better seriously rest my foot the next two days…

Oh my gosh- the meditation, by the way! It was the Everyday Headspace session, and I never remember to save the titles, as they disappear the next day. It was definitely something about listening and getting quiet. It was really good! I have a quote that encapsulates the lesson. Lovely stuff.

Now, to rest. Only sixty-nine more posts to go….


(Also, teehee.)