Meditation: Calm, Calm Light Length: 3 minutes Where: Bedroom, Los Angeles How It Felt: Cleansing
It is starting to look like I may actually be treated to a proper weekend. I don’t even know what to do with myself.
I mean, I do. I have sooooo much to get done, and I need to rest and take care of myself a bit, or risk getting run down and burnt out very soon.
Today I gave blood, and I asked the nurse if there was anything special I should do afterward since I’m also dealing with my period. She told me to drink extra water, get extra iron into my system, and then she leaned over and said earnestly, “and pamper yourself! You need it.”
I almost started crying. I don’t know why, but sometimes I need someone to convince me to stop and care for myself properly. I guess a lot of people do, especially women. I feel like I’ve been running at the speed of light for months now, ever since I went back to work. I thought I would crack the door open and start slowly, this gig or that trickling in after so long away. I didn’t expect the flood that would break down the door completely and rush in. There is just so much work right now. It’s hard to say no to things that are creatively fulfilling, great paying, or (especially) both!
Feast or famine, I guess.
Anyway, Steve has been taking great care of me, so I’m in good hands. We picked up a delicious dinner on the way home (he kindly drove me to my donation appointment for emotional support- I get crazy anxious about giving blood. Hate needles! And, frankly, blood!), came home, got a fire going, and relaxed a bit. He got up to go again and I completely fell asleep on the couch. Like fully out. I have definitely been weaker and more lightheaded than I expected! But at least I have a little recovery time.
Tomorrow I have a quick gig, a few errands, then- blissfully- nothing scheduled until my flight to Michigan next week. I know that will change, more work will pop up or I’ll connect with a friend or two for coffee or drinks before going out of town for three weeks, but I’m so happy to have such a clean slate. A little calm before the holiday storm.
Speaking of Calm, that’s the meditation I did last night. Calm Light. I wanted a quick one so I could get to sleep, but sleep did not come easily. My mania is finally wearing off, though, so hopefully sleep is another thing I can catch up on this weekend.
Then? Three weeks of Christmas parties and travel (to Michigan and Indiana and back to LA and then Tahoe) and kids and catching up with friends and last minute shopping and wrapping and baking and time with people we love, all the while trying to be mindful that we are still in the midst of a pandemic.
Not exactly the most relaxing time! Except for Tahoe. Ohhhhhh, I already can’t wait. Imma ski so hard, and sleep so much, and sit in that hot tub until I’m a prune!
My Year of Meditation 