Meditation: Calm, Relationship with Self Series: Distortions Length: 10 minutes Where: Office/Guest Room, Los Angeles How It Felt: Powerful Who Joined Me: Tigre
It was such a wonderful balance doing this powerful and vulnerable meditation with a sweet, purring kitty in my lap for comfort.
Quick post today- I woke up an hour before my alarm like a sucker and I’ve been running nonstop all day! I just want to make some avocado/tomato/feta dip and watch an episode of Top Chef so bad.
This meditation was basically about the voices in our heads. We talked about how separating ourselves from our thoughts is such an important concept, especially when we get depressed and start playing the same terrible stories about ourselves over and over in our heads.
I’m at a point on my mental health journey now where I can really hear that voice as a totally separate entity when I’m in a downswing. I could not always do this by any stretch of the imagination, and it doesn’t make depression a fun time, but at least I’ve gained the ability to recognize those negative, crazy thoughts as just that: crazy. I still get sad, I still feel insecure, I still even feel worthless sometimes, but because I know these are just depression emotions without any logic or evidence to support them, it cushions the blow a lot.
I can generally be gentle with myself for a few days and wait for the storm to pass.
Another reminder here that talking about mental health is so important. When we identify what we are dealing with, we can learn coping mechanisms to make everything easier. We can find communities of people who understand what we are going through and make us feel less alone. We can dispel the shame associated with mental health issues by taking ownership of our disorders and taking responsibility for our healing and treatment.
Ok, this is all I have in me today. Here’s a photo of my handsome cat comforting me with love and cuddles during our meditation last night. He’s perfect and I hope he never gets depressed.