Meditation: Calm, 7 Days of Calm: Paying Attention Length: 10 minutes Where: Office/Guest Room, Los Angeles How It Felt: I felt very present & inspired
I’m writing this blog the next day, and all I can say is that I am exhausted.
Yesterday I worked, had a phone interview for a job (which I booked! yay!), did three auditions, all requiring different pieces filmed and different photos from different angles (and let me remind you I was home alone, so had to play my own photographer and videographer), got the ball rolling for auditions for my next directing project (thank god I have an amazing AD!), ran some errands, started working on sides for a workshop I have tomorrow, and still managed to clean, make a Blue Apron for dinner, and do my daily things- meditating, Duolingo, write a blog post, etc.
All on about three hours of sleep.
My point is this: today I am wrecked.
But proud.
I’m at a point where my mental health balance depends on my ability to clear the clutter out of my life, because days like yesterday are becoming more common as there are more and more opportunities to do things again. I can clearly see the relationship between my anxious or manic days and how smoothly the little things are going. Do I have plenty of clean laundry? Is there a paper pile sitting on my desk for a week? Do I have systems of organization for everything I use regularly so I can find it all easily? How many of my bullshit constant life tasks are automated so I don’t have to try to remember everything?
And so on.
Today I started to get really overwhelmed trying to get more done when what I really needed was rest. Luckily, Steve is here, and he kindly and patiently helped me shake my stress out and take care of a bunch of things that were contributing to said stress. Having a good and supportive partner when life starts to get to you is such a fricking blessing. After a lifetime of mostly taking care of myself, it’s one I will never take for granted.
I liked this meditation. It was essentially a body scan, which always works well to keep me super present. I do best with something to focus my mind on. I feel like this series is back to basics, and it feels good. Simple and straightforward. Just what my mind needs right now.
Very excited for my first casting director workshop in over two years tomorrow! The actor’s union offers them for free quite frequently, and they are always a great experience. At the very least, it’s a chance to stretch those acting muscles, and I know I need to get back in fighting shape, and fast! Some good opportunities around the bend!
If IATSE doesn’t strike, that is. Otherwise…more like around the bend and down a few more miles and make a left at the big red barn, then go a little farther…
But if strike they must, strike they should. Time for workers everywhere to start demanding more, and I support that completely.
Never a dull moment lately, is there?
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