Meditation: Chopra, Creating Abundance: The Source of All Abundance Length: 15 minutes Where: Office/Guest Room, Los Angeles How It Felt: Gorgeous Who Joined Me: Tigre
Worked a long day yesterday at an event, but honestly felt great afterward. My exhaustion was purely physical, and somewhat exhilarating. After well over a year of generally feeling somewhat lost and trying to be useful, it’s nice to be back to work.
My instinct was to do a shorter meditation, but I stuck with this one. I just read in my book The Untethered Soul about choosing not to turn off your flow, and now I’m experimenting. I am learning new ways to protect my energy by not just giving and giving in every interaction, and it’s pretty powerful stuff. Excited to learn more!
Busy day today, so I wanted to knock this blog out early so I can stay on track. I have a ton of life tasks to get done, plus a rehearsal, an interview, and a friend’s birthday celebration tonight. Steve comes tomorrow! Lots to be excited about.
Yesterday I was having a conversation with someone about climate change and we were sort of joking about hoping the world doesn’t kick us fully off before we’ve had time to live a little more. Suddenly, I had this deeply satisfying thought: If the world ended today, I’m incredibly proud of the life I lived. I’ve had an amazing life full of love and adventure. I’d be okay.
That felt powerful.
I’ve traveled, pursued my wildest dreams and accomplished many of them, fallen in love passionately, married my best friend and soul mate, diligently worked on myself to be the best person I can be, lended my time and energy to worthy causes, helped others when I could, given an animal a wonderful life, found a deep well of self-love, spent time with amazing people, met many of my heroes, experienced so much. My heart is so full when I consider where I started and what I’ve managed to do and be. I’m grateful and proud.
We spend so much time worrying about stupid things that don’t matter, like what people will think if we do or say what we really want, or what if we fail, or what about our “obligations” to people to abuse or take advantage of us. We compare ourselves to the rest of the world and inevitably come up short, because who can be the most accomplished, the richest, the most beautiful, the most traveled, the most perfect person? We miss out on so much happiness by constantly questioning ourselves or refusing to heal our own wounds. We try to make ourselves feel better by judging others instead of adjusting ourselves.
I’m just not interested in any of that anymore. Not that it ever felt good.
From now on, I want to be all about what feels good. That tends to lead me down the right path every time.
I’m saying “no” to things that don’t align much more easily now. It’s so easy once you get clear on who you are and what’s most important. The people and situations that aren’t good for you stick out like sore thumbs. It’s not hard to know what belongs and what feels harmful. It’s obvious.
This is easily the most peaceful I’ve ever felt in my entire life. I’m just… happy.
And endlessly, forever grateful for everything along the way that brought me here.